The Reed Family

A New Blog

2011-10-28T12:50:00.001-07:00

I know I'm crazy especially because I haven't blogged on my own site for a while but I started a new blog for my Primary Chorister calling. You can check it out here http://anotherprimarychorister.blogspot.com/ . So update on our family and hopefully some pictues soon!!!!

What We Need

2011-07-13T21:46:00.000-07:00

So, I guess it's been forever since I've blogged because it's all this new layout and I'm completely unaware of how to navigate it yet. But, I figured I'd write since I can't sleep with this extreme lightning and loud thunderstorm. Oh, and not to mention water dripping into three different bowls as our roof leaks. I'm SO glad we are getting out of this place. So the big news now is HEATH GOT A JOB! I know most of you my close friends and family know but I though I should publish it. It's been a crazy road. More than I ever imagined and I know the adventures are just starting, but we are finally here. Heath had another job potential in Mesa, AZ that we really thought he would get. He didn't. So, I postponed making any plans and was still living in limbo while he started his new job in Colorado Springs. He is on a business trip right now for this job. Fun huh? Not so much for me but he's having a great experience. I've been surviving too. It hasn't been as hard as I thought it would be. Yes, by nighttime I'm exhausted but I'm alive and kicking. He doesn't come home till Friday and I'm counting down the hours. This weekend we are having a garage sale and just pack pack packing. I probably made a mistake having a garage sale this close to moving but oh well! We have applications in for two homes in the Springs and have been approved but I have to go see the second home tomorrow morning to make sure it's what we really want. This experience has also been really good for Heath and I. We have been relying on the Lord so much more and really strengthening and looking for ways to stretch our testimony and see His will. We are so grateful for this job and so lucky to have anything right now....especially in his career. He is working as a Planner for a design firm. I'm so proud of him! He's such an amazing father and man and friend. I think our lot in life is to struggle financially...so far the first 9 years but I'm hoping that will eventually fade. I know, I have so many pictures to catch up on.....

Jace's kindergarten graduation concert, 6th Birthday, Camping with friends, 4th of July, Summer Outings...etc. I'll get there, I promise.

I think the storm has passed and I need some shut eye to face the day tomorrow.

I will tell you one thing. I can feel the love and prayers of friends and family daily. They lift me hourly and the Lord grants me more patient with my sweet children. I need that always! The boys are such a handful but they are my little helpers and they couldn't love their little Mazie girl any more. She IS LOVED!!! And while, things didn't work out the way we all fasted and prayed for by getting the job in Mesa, I know the Lord has blessed us with what we need right now instead of what we want.

I get it.

2011-04-22T22:02:00.000-07:00

I've debated on whether I should write this down in my personal journal or on my blog. And well, I decided on my blog in the hopes that someone else will read it and they too will get it......

For the last couple months, I've been struggling with our situation. Heath's been done with grad school since December and we've been looking for jobs since last summer. He's had this filler job, which I am grateful for, however, it takes him away nearly all day from 9 a.m. to 11 p.m. at night with some breaks in between.So, not only was I doing everything on my own while Heath was in night school these last 3 years, but now once again, I'm doing everything again. We've been so frustrated and angry with Heath's job search. We apply, don't get interviews, don't even hear anything sometimes, try to make connections with family, friends, ward members, lds employment services, etc. you name it, we've done it.

Nearly every Friday, Heath and I both feel dead again inside like nothing has changed, another week goes by with no promise, another week ahead of this dead-end job, tiny little condo, exhausting responsibilities. And really, I know it could be worse and there are worse trials to endure. But, for now, this is my trial.

I've been frustrated with the Lord and depressed with our life. Why can't things change? Why can't we find a job, Why will no one hire Heath? Why did we invest so much time and MONEY into graduate school only to be denied from every job? And the worst feeling is Why are we doing everything we are supposed to do..go to church, pay our tithing, fast and pray, choose the right, living and sharing the gospel, all of it...if we aren't getting the blessings?

And then everything changed for me last week....

I'm sure it was the timing of it all, and I've had moments of clarity through this trial but nothing like this yet. Last weekend, Heath and I got a babysitter and went to the adult session of stake conference. It was a great night because one talk hit me especially hard. The speaker spoke about trials and blessings. She said this one line, "During our trial, we do receive blessings....it may not be immediate employment or a family or what our heart desires, but we receive immediate blessings through our Heavenly Father as assistance, guidance and peace." She continued to talk about faith. I know you've heard it all before. Have faith, the Lord has a plan, It's all in his timing and his way.....etc. but then she talked about the faith during the trial. And suddenly I got it.

Heath and I exercised our faith in Heavenly Father that we would get a job. But, we don't have a job and now we have to have faith DURING the trial. That is the trial...to have faith when you don't see the blessing in front of you. Just like it says, "Ye receive no witness until after the trial of your faith." No witness, that means you can not see the blessings until your faith has truly been tried. And during that trial, if you do exercise faith in the Lord, you allow Him to bless you with assistance, guidance, and peace.

I also realized I've been like Laman and Lemuel. I've been reading that part with the boys and I realized I was just like them. Going through the motions, doing what I was "suppossed" to do but complaining all the while. So, I vowed to be only positive this week and be happy and it worked.

After that night, I can tell you that i have no anger, frustration, confusion or bitterness toward the Lord. In fact, I feel at peace. It's the only way I can describe it. Heavenly Father has somehow removed this burden from my back and has replaced it with a knowledge that He knows who I am, what our family needs, and that it's in his hands.

The trial has not gone away and nothing has changed...except my perspective. I'm so grateful for this change of heart. It also came at the exact moment I needed it because the next day, Heath got another letter of regret for a job he wanted in Mesa. He was devastated and I was devastated for him. However, I was able to be strong and faithful and hopeful for the both of us.

I get it. I hope I don't forget it but I know I'll have to learn this over and over again. I know the right job is coming but not sure when and I do know for sure that the Lord is aware of us.

Good Times in AZ and more...

2011-04-20T14:19:00.000-07:00

Some More Pics... I just adore you!!!

2011-03-25T21:32:00.000-07:00

Latest Happennings

2011-03-13T21:17:00.000-07:00

Well, I hope you enjoy the pictures. I'm sorry I haven't blogged in so long. If I'm on the computer, I'm looking for jobs for Heath or helping Heath apply for jobs. Our life revolves around this right now. We are grateful that Heath has a job to pay the bills but this job is exhausting us both. He's gone from 9 a.m. to 11 p.m. M-F with some breaks in between. It pretty much sucks and I'm a single mom most days. We've been praying and fasting for a job but nothing has happened yet. We know it will when it's the right time. I've really come to realize that this has everything to do with timing. For instance, after applying for an IEP meeting for Jace in October they are now getting around to it April. Having that paperwork and program in place is crucial to his future and with out knowing where we are going to be, it's a huge blessing to have because we can carry that wherever we go in the country. Also, Jace has been making a lot of progress with his private therapy and we'll have to let go of that therapy as soon as Heath gets a job. So, I've been finding a lot of silver lining lately, which is great. But, I still have hard days and I hate our apartment and Mazie has nowhere to cry it out so I'm not getting sleep, we have no room for our stuff, our dresser is broken, our chair just broke, our dishwasher is broken and well that's just the beginning. I hate being negative and that's why I don't blog because I probably would just use it to vent. So, yes, I have found joy in doing things for others. I try to do something to serve someone at least once a week because then I'm not thinking about myself. Funny thing, I don't really do anything for myself at this point. I know every one says to take time but really, when? I so miss sewing but that's probably not in my future for another year. Heath trys to give me breaks and he's really been wonderful through all of this. We both have our up and downs but he's been my rock. I love you Heath. Everyone has trials and hard days. Who knows when I'll get on here again. Sorry. We'll see. It might be to announce a move or a job. I hope!

Some Recent Pics

2011-03-13T21:03:00.000-07:00

Next Up...Christmas

2011-03-13T20:49:00.000-07:00

We went to California for Christmas this year and had a BLAST!!! Here's some picture highlights...

Mazie's Blessing

2011-03-13T20:34:00.000-07:00

I have lots of catch up.... Enjoy....It'll be a lot pictures per request! :) First thing first, Mazie's special day! My parents and Heath's parents came because we coincided it with his graduation. But, it was sad to not have our other family members there and they were all VERY missed.This day was very special especially because first Mazie was named after Heath's grandma and second, she was blessed in a very unique dress--Heath's grandma Mazie wore this dress fabric to Heath's mom's wedding and then his sister, made a dress out of the fabric. When Heath and I got married, she gave us this dress in hopes we'd have a baby girl someday! So blessed that we did!! Because our sweet Mazie is a petite little thing, I had to make some major alterations so it would fit. So the weekend before, my mom and I took the dress apart and then put it back together. And I LOVE IT!!!! She looked like my little porcelain doll. And although it's been difficult having no sleep again and dealing with a toddler and a baby, I have never doubted that she came at the exact time she was supposed to. She is an enormous blessing in our lives and we just adore her.

2011

2011-01-03T19:57:00.000-08:00

I have more to post from the past, but tonight i just need to write. I'm holding my sweet baby girl as i do and thinking about already how hard 2011 has been. It has started off with first, having no money, no job for Heath. I mean, he has a job as a driver, but not the job he wants or deserves, Heath's car died so we had to buy a new starter, woke up to the van having a flat tire, Jace has an upper respiratory infection so yes, Camden and Mazie now have it too. My heart aches every time my little kids get sick. I'm totally helpless. Then, i have Mazie's 4 month and they say that she's not growing enough. I really don't want to stop nursing but I know i have to do what's best for her. It's the worst feeling feeling like you aren't giving your child what she needs. Then, she proceeds to say that I should cut out all night feedings. Wow, that could be hard. She's so young and also i want her to get enough food. She started solids and is doing pretty good but now I'm worried about allergies. Seriously, it's true, mother's worry and worry and never stop. Today, i really thought, I don't want any more kids because that's just one more that i have to worry that I'm not doing what's right.

Camden and Mazie both wouldn't let me put them down today so that was interesting. Heath of course is still working at night so I'm on my own most of the time, which I'm acclimated to, but it's never easy. And, now we were supposed to hear about the New Mexico job today and we heard nothing so now I don't know what's happening. I want this job so bad but maybe just because it's a job in itself! I had a revelation that the Lord needs us to be patient for the RIGHT job. This made a lot of sense to me because really anyone can get a job but for us, it needs to be the right one for us our family and our kids' needs. I would love to more positive but I'm just discouraged. So...send some positive energy my way....and maybe some healthy kids...that would be nice.

I know it sounds bad, but I'm fine. Just venting. :)

Finallly.... a Graduate!!!

2011-01-01T09:17:00.000-08:00

Heath did it! Now we're done! Yipeee!!!! It was a great weekend! Both our parents came out to support him! We love them so much and couldn't have gotten through this time without them. I am so unbelievably proud of my hubby! Way to go Heath! The ceremony wasn't that bad because I had help with the kids. My dad took the boys on a whole adventure around the convention center and apparently they rode every escalator they could find! The other grandparents helped, hold, entertain, feed, watch and it was a HUGE help!!!! Thank you!!! I will say one thing, I don't want to sit through another graduation for a long long time if ever at all. :) Can't believe it's over and it really has gone by so fast. I know it will pay off with a job eventually....the right job. Until then, I'm grateful Heath has a filler job for us to pay the bills.

Merry Christmas

2010-12-31T10:20:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas! Hope this letter finds you and your family doing well. We've had a fabulous 2010 full of many blessings! We are excited to see what awaits our family for the New Year! Instead of a long, lengthy letter, I'd thought you'd enjoy our TOP 10 Moments of 2010.

10 - Enjoying the beautiful Colorado sun, thunderstorms, tornado warnnings and of course lots of snow

9 - Spending hours and months searching and applying for jobs....we're hoping and praying we get one very soon!

8 - Family vacation to Rocky Mountains with Aunt Alison and Uncle Ryan. Renting a cabin, playing in the snow and carving out a huge sledding hill!!! It was so much fun and I can't wait to go again sometime

7 - Purchasing a Honda Oddyssey Van! With the addition of a third child, our little accord wouldn't quite fit the crew. We were lucky to find a great deal and I absolutely LOVE it!

6 - Stacey organizing a community summer service project and spending nearly every Saturday at the community garden...prepping, planting, weeding, harvesting and serving! It was an amazing experience! (Silo Park Garden Project)

5 - Taking a road trip to Arizona during the summer to see family, friends and eat yummy food! It was a short but great vacation!

4 - Jace turning 5, starting Kindergarten, playing on his first soccer team, making his first lemonade stand

3 - Camden turning 2 and into the "terrible twos," but also talking, tackling and tossing. (this kid has an arm)

2 - Heath graduating with two Master's Degrees from the University of Colorado!! One in Urban and Regional Planning and the other in Urban Design. He and I are both thrilled!!! Yipee!!!

drum rolll...............................And the #1 Moment of 2010....................wait for it......................................

1 - Welcoming our sweet baby girl Mazie Jaelyn into our family! We just adore her and are so lucky to have her in our lives. The boys can't love on her enough.

As much as I'd like to say, go look at our blog, for more updates in our lives, I unfortunately haven't been good at keeping that up to date. My apologies. I hope to do better in 2011 so I can capture the many great and meaninful moments in our lives. We should know in the next couple months where we'll end up! We are thankful to have such great family and friends bless our lives! We Wish you a very Merry Christmas! Hope the holidays and New Year bring joy and happiness your way.

Two Years

2010-11-11T20:07:00.000-08:00

I made this for his Birthday this year! Camden LOVES Elmo!!!!

How has two years gone by since I had Camden! Even still, somedays I wake up and can't believe I have three. Camden is such a joy to our family! He is still determined as ever and a little stubborn guy but I adore him! He is truly Obsessed with sports. He sleeps with a football. It's so funny. Tonight at his birthday dinner, he ran to the bar to watch football. He'll sit and watch soccer and know exactly what's going on and yell when they almost score, ask to watch a basketball game on tv. He cracks me up! His is saying so many more words these days and I love hearing each new one. I keep trying to get him to say his name and he won't do it. He just smirks and says, "no." He is climbing on everything and it's not uncommon to see him eating lunch in indian style on top of the table. He throws everything he can, can still drop kick a ball, has a major sweet tooth and I need to nip that right away. I can't keep him out of the kitchen because he's constantly eating and yet, he's still little. He adores Mazie and holds her all the time. He thinks he has to do everything Jace does and asks all day, where's Jace?...at school...the same routine every day. The boys love playing together and fighting of course. Thus the nature of brothers. But we love our boys and now our sweet little girl makes a perfect little family. :) Still waiting on the job...i imagine hope and pray we'll know more in 4 weeks from now. Happy Birthday Camden! It snowed today just like the day you were born. We love you!

Updates

2010-10-27T20:45:00.000-07:00

I suppose it's time for a real post. It's 915 and yes I should probably go to bed but I haven't blogged in a while, and after today, I really need it!! Just one of those days. The boys are sick again and it's fall break...so we've been stuck in the house. GOING CRAZY!!! Heath had to work late tonight too. Things have been so crazy and as you can tell, with a newborn, there's never a dull moment. It's funny, I can remember thinking before i had Mazie while Camden was taking his nap and Jace at school, I actually had a moment to myself and thought "sure, I can do another baby." Some days I wonder what I was thinking. But seriously as these boys wrestle and fight and scream and run around like crazy, I feel so lucky to snuggle with my little princess. She is a joy to have around and when she smiles and coos, it warms my heart. In fact, I find my mouth hurting from smiling so much.

Yet, I have to be honest, I still feel completely exhausted with no sleep at night, cry here and there for no reason, have small little outbursts because my house can never stay in order, the kids can't keep their hands to themselves, and Heath still can't find a job. I hate to complain because I know we are so blessed. And know plenty of couples who would love to have a busy life with kids along with the good and the bad they bring.

My friend Wendy came by tonight for a sec to pick something up (she works full time), and honestly I wanted to switch places with her so I could just go to an office, sit in a cubical and do a job where I know what the outcome will be. With kids, anything can happen. I suppose that's what keeps things interesting though.

So, enough of that. Heath is graduating in December and we've been on the job hunt for months now! We actually haven't gone a couple weeks without applying to a new job. And lately, we've been applying to them once a week atleast. I know things will work out, they always do, but I am a planner and yet again, I am found in the position of having no idea where we'll be in a couple months. The most important thing to us is making sure Jace is in a good school district but I have no control over where we get a job. I have faith in the future but man, I wish I would know by now. We both want to move out of this condo so bad bc we are bursting at the seems. So we are praying and praying and fasting that we can go where the Lord needs us to be. It's funny I say, sure I'll go wherever, but when push comes to shove, I don't want to be far from family. Yet, I will go.

Jace started kindergarten and is LOVING it! He takes the bus all by himself. Every time he drives off, I can't believe i have a kid old enough to ride the bus. But it's a great set up right outside our door so the convenience is heaven sent. Camden turns two years old in a couple weeks. And I can't believe that either. He is talking a lot more and talking back too. I suppose that's the joy of having an older sibling to teach you bad manners. That stinker! He is stubborn and determined but so loving when he wants. He climbs every where and gets into everything. But he ADORES his sister. He has to hold her all the time. I hope they are good friends when they are older. :)

I need to post some family pictures we took. I will soon. The colors have changed it was a beautiful fall but now the leaves are nearly gone and winter is peaking its head around the corner. I'm not sure how I feel about having snow again. Worried about more winter sickness and colds and flus. I might get my flu shot for the first time this year. Any thoughts? So debatable.

Well time to go to sleep for a couple hours. I hope to stay afloat these next couple days. Mazie is stirring as I write and my feet are getting cold as it's in the 20s tonight. sleep tight.

More pics.....

2010-10-23T08:49:00.001-07:00

Ali and Ryan visit!

2010-10-22T11:11:00.001-07:00

Mazie Jaelyn Reed

2010-09-28T20:03:00.000-07:00

Here she is! Our sweet Mazie girl was born on August 26th at 10:02 a.m. She was 5 lbs 11 oz. She was 17 inches long. (We think the hospital measured wrong bc she's already 19 inches) :) She was born c-sec so no surprises or labor. I have to have all my babies that way. I hate the surgery but I feel so blessed to have a healthy baby girl! We love her and the boys absolutely adore her! We named her after Heath's grandma, who was his best friend, and her middle name after my mom (Lynn). So much has happened since then that I can't update everything so I thought I'd just post a ton of pictures!

How does your garden grow???

2010-07-28T07:21:00.000-07:00

Here's the beginning of the charity garden I've been helping out with! What started out as a small service project has turned into months of enjoyment and service opportunities! These were taken in June and I already need to post more from July because it's grown SOOOO much. The kids have loved helping out too!!!!

Just Some Pics For Now....

2010-07-28T07:10:00.000-07:00

MIA

2010-07-20T20:05:00.000-07:00

I know I have been absent from the blogging world. I've had a lot going on and so much to catch up on....
29thBirthday - Arizona Trip - Swimming - Birthday Parties - Children's Museum - Gardening - Scraped Knees and Bumped Heads - Father's Day - Job Applications - Summer Sickness -

I need to recap some of these events just for my own journal entries. So, first my birthday... Heath said he wanted to meet me at Pinkberry the Monday before my birthday and I thought, ok, kind of weird just because he's not a huge fan of this place. But I agreed. I get there and all my girlfriends are there! SURPRISE! It was such a great surprise and hello...pinkberry...couldn't get a better treat! It was kind of chilly outside so we all decided to pile into our van (yes, we have a van now) and talk for a while. It was really fun and to be honest, I didn't need anything else for my birthday. All I really want is a fun night out with my friends and something special from my hubby. I got just that. On my actual birthday, we decided to leave for AZ early just to get out of town. Heath had to work the nursery that morning but when he got home he gave me a "NothingBundtCakes" mini birthday cake. So sweet! Thought it was going to be a great day. Well.....it was just another day of dealing with life and kids and everything that comes with it. Driving across the state on my birthday wouldn't have been bad except...Jace threw up every hour till we got to New Mexico. Guess he was sick but he was fine when we got there and the rest of the night (Phew!) None of us got anything either. Who knows?

Arizona was BEYOND HOT! Maybe it was the extra 10 degrees of heat from the pregnancy but I was so hot and I was such a wimp. How did I live here for 4 years!! I am so used to the mild beautiful weather and sometimes freezing temperatures of Colorado. The cool nights here are amazing in the summer and the afternoon thunderstorms are still my favorite. And yet, this was only a stop on our journey. I've seemed to forget that. On the job hunt and who knows where it will take us. So, AZ was fun though! We pretty much lived in the pool and I got to see some good friends! We of course ate Mangos mexican food and IN n Out among other places. I took Jace with his cousins to see Toy Story 3, which turned out to be pretty cute. (Jace still talks about the scary monkey with the camera:) I love watching Jace with his cousins and It's really something he misses as well. I didn't really grow up with my cousins but I can see how it would be really fun having family so close. We had a great time but it all went too fast. Back to life and back to the reality of jobs, kids, responsibilities...

Anyways...good for now. I'm sick with strep and bronchitis but on meds so should be getting better. things are getting kinda foggy so I'm gonna go lay down. I'll update more later.

Happy Birthday Jace

2010-06-10T21:09:00.000-07:00

Can't believe Jace turned 5 years old! I planned a safari adventure party! Jace had fun but the weather didn't cooperate as well as I would've liked so the outdoor activities were rushed. Note to self: plan Jace's next party the weekend after his birthday not the weekend before. This is the second time weather wasn't the best for his party. I planned a safari scavenger hunt where the kids first got binoculars for the adventure! They had to find animals I had put throughout the playground, read the clue, then do the activity or game to get the next clue. It was so fun to see them get excited for the next clue. Unfortunately, it started to sprinkle so the games were cut short. At the end they each got their own brown bag backpack with animal crackers, mini safari cameras, grow your own animal, stickers. The snacks were animal cookies, fruit kabobs, chocolate covered raisins, gummy worms, lemonade and then LION CUPCAKES!! I had so much fun making these but it was a lot more work then I thought cutting up all the licorice. They did taste delicious and I love making the cake for his birthday. It's my once a year treat! Plus, I really enjoy doing the Hello Cupcake creations. I borrowed my friend's book :) The rest of the party was just laid back...the kids played chase, rolling down the hill, kickball, freeze tag. Jace got WAY too many presents. It's crazy. His friends, Brooklyn and Taylor gave him a GIANT firetruck and Brooklyn finished it off with a big KISS! Look at his face...it's priceless. He did start laughing after that and it was a funny moment. I had a nice time visiting with the parents that came and man, next year, I think I'll do more low key. It was a lot of work to be over so fast.

Mother's Day

2010-05-25T12:52:00.000-07:00

Mother's Day this year was so different than past years but it turned out GREAT! Heath has had to work Sunday's this month and that's been an adjustment but really not too bad. However, on Mother's day, I was hoping it wouldn't be the case...it was. So, I had a while to prepare for no expectations and I was fine. The morning went okay, sac. meeting was fine with it's occasional hiccups, but it was a good day at church. The RS in our ward always has a little treat for the ladies after the lesson...fruit, cakes, muffins, etc. So church went great! Heath surprised me with gorgeous flowers the day before so he was already on my good side. But then.... he made those certificates and Jace got me a necklace. It was so cute and thoughtful. Jace gave me the necklace like he was proposing to me...it was hilarious. Don't know where he gets it sometimes. THANK YOU boys for a wonderful mother's day I'll never forget. I love you three so much.

Fire Museum

2010-05-25T12:32:00.000-07:00

Trying to fit a fireman's shoes can be a hard task

The happiest place on earth for Jace

Look who's at the wheel!!

They had jackets, hats, gloves, masks for the kids to put on. But, of course, Jace brought his own! Here he is shooting the fire. He got to see firemen too because they were all coming to pick up their yearbooks that day.

Aren't these fire hydrants so cute?


Grandma and the boys at the Denver Firefighter's Museum

A couple weeks ago, Grandma came to play with the boys and help me out while Heath was finishing up finals! Whew it was SO helpful because Heath was gone so much and even with my mom there, I was exhausted. We were pretty much home bound bc of the one car situation, Heath's school and job. But, it worked out for us to drop off Daddy downtown and take advantage of the 1st Tuesday of the month FREE DAY at the Denver Firefighter's Museum. One of our only outings in the week. We had a blast and the only thing missing was a gate at the top of the stairs, otherwise I could have let the boys run around and not have a care in the world!I highly recommend YOU to try it out next month and let us know and we'll come along! Just have to pay for parking across the street if the meters are taken.

Baby #3

2010-04-22T20:33:00.000-07:00

Here's a glamorous picture of my belly! I don't know why people want to see it...but they do. :) This baby #3 is a...... GIRL!!! Can't believe it myself! I'm so excited but also wondering how this new addition will work with our family of rambunctious boys! Perhaps she'll be an angel like I was...right mom? :) I don't know how to post the ultrasound pics without a scanner so sorry. I won't be posting more pics of me for a while.....

Just love this face

2010-04-22T20:03:00.000-07:00

Camden is getting oh so cute but who am I kidding, he's always been cute! He's also become quite the determined, stubborn stinker and active little guy. I can hardly keep him from chasing Jace around the house making growling sounds, tackling and sitting on me, daddy, Jace, friends...etc., throwing his food across the room, thinking that everything he does is funny even when it's not, dumping water outside the tub, let's see...falling over and getting a goose egg nearly every week. These days that's just a given! This kid is going to have more bumps, bruises, broken bones..I'm sure of it. Jace had his first accident only last year. Camden, on the other hand, loves to run into walls. Not to mention, a couple weeks ago, he got into the trash can, pulled out an aluminum can and sliced his finger. just lovely. they glued it back together and was quite the trooper.

He also gives the BEST hugs and kisses imaginable! Can dribble a basketball. Can drop kick a soccer ball. LOVES being outside any chance he can get. Laughs when he sees squirrels and rabbits. Squeals when daddy comes home! Said Elephant the other day! Can blab and talk forever! Just love this little boy! Thanks for being such a joy in my life.

Believe it or Not

2010-04-07T09:28:00.000-07:00

March flew by this year and I can hardly believe it's April. Another thing I can hardly believe is how round my tummy is getting. Being pregnant is not really tangible until you see your body change or feel the baby. Well, both have happened and I'm not sure how I feel about being all big and round again but can't wait for this sweet baby to join the family. Also, i can't wait to find out if it's a boy or girl. Can't believe this was the last spring break for Heath. Also can't believe it's snowing today.

Well, we had our last round of visits last week and we're anxiously awaiting more visitors. At the end of January, my mom came. two weeks later, ali and ryan came and then last week Heath's parents came! We LOVE having people come to Colorado so if you're looking for a trip, consider it! Unfortunately, we have yet to have a comfortable bed for our guests to sleep in so most opt for the hotel route. I'm happy with where I am at right now in my life. It's crazy and unpredictable but it makes me smile. Today, the kids and I stayed in the car and danced and sang our hearts out to a Backstreet Boys song. I love those moments. I took Jace to get his haircut because I just didn't have the time to sit and do it for an hour. I really enjoying cutting his hair but he moves so much it takes forever! I'm not a pro. :) Today is picture day!

So, what happened in March? a lot. Let's see if I can recap. Went to the museum with Jace's class to check out the dinosaurs, watched Camden get even more teeth...he's done now., enjoying Jace's learning moments--he wrote the word CAT for the first time and without my help. He sounded the whole thing out himself. More snow days. Heath and I went and saw Michael Buble! As gay as that might sound, HE and I really enjoyed it! It wasn't obviously a rock out concert but he is such a great entertainer. It was both of our first concerts! Our next one will be Muse. Our seats were high but close to the stage so we got to see all of Buble funny antics and silly dance moves. He really has a great sense of humor too. It was a much needed date night (THANK YOU Brenda and Terry for coming and watching the kiddos so we could be at ease :) Heath's parents came and we had a blast! They took Jace to see How to Train a Dragon, we ate and ate, played games, stayed indoors from the cold weather, went on an easter egg hunt, planted veggies for the garden and well just loved having them here.

Easter this year was special. I made a Jerusalem dinner with lamb, barley, salad, deviled eggs, grape juice, pita bread, asparagus, fruit desert. Everyone seemed to enjoy it! We did an easter program with the kids that morning and watched General Conference of course! Jace sat through and listened to two talks!!! I know...I was shocked too. He would sit there and pick out words, like Jesus, faith, family. It warms my heart to see him grow in the gospel. I felt like every talk this year was for me. I needed that extra push as a mother and a parent to be more loving, patient, enduring, organized, focused. etc.

That's it for now. I'm going to go and be a mom now.

Lose Yourself and Find You

2010-04-03T19:52:00.000-07:00

So, I've been totally swamped and consumed with this service project I've been putting together these last weeks. Hence, MIA from the blogging world. My spare time has been devoted to making phone calls to community leaders, talking or emailing high school contacts, trying to work with scouts..etc. So, I've been busy but I've been loving it! I got on my service project blog tonight to post about my experience today. So, check it out if you'd like to see what I did today.

Anyways, I'll tell you how it all came about. For the last two years, I've been volunteering my time with helping out a grassroots service initiative called 42 in 42. My husband's mission companion started it to inspire people to lead a service project in their community or join a cause to serve. It's 42 projects in 42 days. It doesn't start until April 16. This year, I really wanted to help out with more than just editing and writing press releases and media stuff....I wanted to lead a project!

After some phone calls and some tweaking the Silo Park Garden Project emerged! A local park grows a garden each year with vegetables and flowers. They usually have the city running the veggie part but this year with budget cuts were seeking volunteers to help. I called about a different idea and this one fell into my lap! I wanted to start a community garden and here it was. The only thing is, which I think is even better, all the food harvested is donated to local charities each year. The perks of a community garden are all there except we don't eat the fruits of our labor. :)

With spring break, general conference and easter, we didn't have a great turnout this morning for the planting of the cabbage, broccoli and the strawberries, but that means it can only get better next Saturday.

Read here for my post today.

2010-03-10T20:35:00.000-08:00

It's just about now when the tears start to fall
I wonder if i'm gonna make it at all
This is not about trying to go back in time
This is not about where we'll be a year down the line
It's just moment to moment, surviving somehow
This is not about then, this is just about now.

I think I realize now what this song is about. She is just trying to make it through one more day. And she doesn't want to think about the great times in the past or the easier it will be in the future, she just wants to dwell on how much she misses him now. Heath is gone every night of the week these days except Sat and Sun. He took a night job delivery pharmaceuticals MF and while it's nice to have some income it comes at the expense of never having a daddy or a husband. He's at school T-Th all day and night and yesterday was just one of those days where I was just trying to make it through till bedtime. The boys miss him terribly too. Sometimes I can't help when I just start crying. It's not that I'm depressed. I just get overwhelmed and then with the prego hormones, i just cry more. The good thing is I see a much brighter future but it's just hard with this work and school thing. I will be thrilled when it's done and welcome the days where he works every day but is home by dinnertime. I know graduate school was the right decision and I know it will be a huge blessing in the long-run, there are just those days where wow, it's hard. I'll get through it. I always do. I am so blessed and we really do love it here. thanks for listening to my sob story. :) I'll have a happy one tomorrow.

No Need for Words

2010-03-08T19:21:00.000-08:00

I don't know what's gotten into this kid, but he NEVER stops talking! We had a sitter on Saturday night and he talked to her from the second she arrived to the moment we walked out the door. Well, this was Jace's idea although I won't say I haven't thought of it before. :) I sure love him!

updates

2010-03-02T19:48:00.000-08:00

Let's see. I figure you are all wondering what we've been up to really. Or maybe if you're not, I just thought I'd write anyways. Well a couple things that have kept me from blogging is the fact that our home pc and Heath's laptop decided to both poop out at the same time! What! I know. I felt so disconnected from the world. No internet, no files, no budget reminders...i really couldn't do much about it so oh well. We got a loaner tower from our computer guy but now...I am writing from our new computer!!! I like it so far! Heath's laptop still has a worm. figures.

But, I am grateful it was able to function enough for Heath's application for a VERY important internship. Speaking of which, we've been applying to jobs for summer and actually full time as well. Heath graduates with two Master's degrees in December and well naturally we're hoping to land a job! Our mindset has kind of switched gears. At first, we planned on applying to jobs everywhere but Heath's thinking that just maybe someone can hire him now and keep him on through his last semester. It's wishful thinking but it might work. If not, we're applying pretty much all over the west coast. I'm excited for what's ahead.

What's ahead is also another baby. And to be honest, I haven't really felt nervous about it yet. Something keeps reassuring me that Camden will be ready for this new addittion to our family. He's turning 16 months soon and I can't believe it!

This kid has so much personality! And would you believe it, he's a lefty. I don't even think either of our families have left handed on our side but they say...those are the creative ones! He has to do just about anything and everything Jace does! and Camden really has an appettite. He's happy and content as long as he's eating. Seriously today, let's see within one hour, he had pasta broccoli bake,cereal, goldfish, 3 pancakes, glass of milk, and crackers. He's gonna clean us out of house and home. On the other hand, I can never get Jace to eat, so this a welcome change.

I'm doing fine just getting through the days at this point and wishing my sickness would go away altogether. I really feel for those sick in their pregnancies now! The first two I was a little nauseaus, but this....this is a whole new level of sick. Perhaps it is a girl. But really, I would be happy with a little boy too. They would have so much fun. I'm 14 weeks and starting to feel it and using the rubberband method. :) Looking forward to the second trimester when I have that burst of energy! I've also started watching one of my friend's little boy for a couple hours a day to earn some money. The boys LOVE having Jackson over and can't wait to have him come. They have so much fun and it really has been a good experience. He's such a cute little guy and has just as much energy as them! It forces me to get on the ground and play with them a lot more too! Oh, and I know that every T, TH, I'll have the house clean in order to stay on top of things. So, that's a good motivation.

That's good for now and really, I'd be shocked if you read this all. have a happy night!

news

2010-02-23T16:10:00.000-08:00

been sick.... been tired... been busy.... oh yeah, been pregnant :) 13 weeks along and due August 31st! We're excited and everyone is hoping it's a girl, but we'll see. three boys could be quite fun as well.

can't play catch up anymore...

2010-02-19T08:13:00.001-08:00

.....i need to just start somewhere bc i have too much that has happened. So, our most recent adventures.... Alison and Ryan came up to see us and we all went to the mountains! We stayed in a fabulous cabin and had a great time! Heath and Ryan dug an amazing course for sledding and it was so dang fast! Seriously, we all kept flying off the course. It was nearly 400 ft. long; 125 yards of sheer excitement and terror! At one point, Jace flew off and Ryan saved him from hitting a tree. Jace got up and said let's do it again! He was a little dare devil. There was a ton of snow to play in and the kids had a blast! It was so fun to get all bundled up and just spend some great time together. here's some pics but the videos are the best!

Thanksgiving Highlights

2010-01-22T12:30:00.000-08:00

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Funk

2010-01-21T10:27:00.000-08:00

I seem to be in a blogging funk because I have so much to catch up on. It's kind of like when you haven't talked to a good friend in years, and you keep putting it off because there's so much to tell...can you really stay on the phone for 2 hours? So, I need to update pics about Thanksgiving, Christmas, Arizona, sewing projects, Heath's 30th, and more! So, please forgive me blog followers and blog stalkers, but I'll get back on the ball soon.

slow....

2009-12-26T09:31:00.001-08:00

I'm sitting at work wishing the day would go faster--looking at the clock thinking it has to be an hour later yet only 20 minutes have passed. Christmas day was a great day! We woke up and the kids got their stockings and the home-made sock monkeys from me. There was no having breakfast. The only thing on Jace's mind was presents. Thanks to his wonderful grandmas and grandpas the boys got more presents than we planned. that was a nice treat for them. I don't have my camera, but I'll post later.

It's crazy how Christmas expectations change as you get older. It used to be all about what I got. I didn't mind at all that I didn't open one present this year. In fact, I can remember Christmases being disappointed because I didn't get that much. My parents always gave us great gifts but nothing extravagant. Looking back, I'm grateful that there wasn't soo much focus on presents. One of my absolute favorite holiday traditions in my family is our home-made gift exchange. We only do it every other year. (this year was Heath's family xmas) We started it, I believe nearly 10 years ago, I think. We all draw names in December and this is the most anticipated gift of the whole day....mostly because you know that that person put their heart and soul into figuring out a creative home-made gift they would enjoy. Let's see, a few that I've made: Birdie Sling Purse, Framed Photo Collage, Embroidered Pillow, Family Web site, i can't think of others. Some that I've received: Quilt, Xmas Wall hanging, Pillow Blanket, Bean Bag, Stationary, Nursing Cover, Baby Blanket, Family Calendar. These gifts mean so much more to me and they are lasting.

This year it was all about the BOYS! I enojoy Christmas so much more with kids. It's so fun to watch their reactions to each gift and see how much they appreciate it. Even though this was a meager Christmas, the kids had no idea and were just happy for what they got. Camden kept saying, "Wow" and Jace would jump up and down yelling "Woo Hoo" Jace played with his police cars, dump truck and street sweeper and helicopter all day and Camden got a bunch of fun interactive gifts. The best part of the day though was just being all together. Heath's family came over and we had a mexican fiesta Christmas. The food was delicious!!!!!! I love seeing the cousins play. At one point in the day, however, I sat down on the couch and looked around at 5 different people playing on their new electronic toy. It was weird...no one was talking...just playing on their I touch or I phone or MP3 or Ipod. Understandable but a tad bit sad.

Later that day, we went and saw Sherlock Holmes, which I really enjoyed. The movie wasn't non-stop action but it was entertaining and I like the mystery focused stories. Plus, the acting was great. It's hard to believe Christmas day is over but I'm grateful that I was able to reflect on the true meaning of Christmas this year. I am thankful that we could be together as family. I was hoping to do Christmas caroling or the nativity this year but it just got hectic at the house. It will be easier to start traditions when we're at our own home. :) We did squeeze in reading Luke Christmas Eve.

Arizona

2009-12-23T12:37:00.000-08:00

Well, my Christmas letter is coming. My computer is being weird so that will come with all the news of the year. We are in Arizona now and have been for nearly 2 weeks! I got offered a part-time temp. position at an Aviation company and so we packed our bags and headed out of Denver until next year. The drive was mostly uneventful. hooray! We stayed with Heath's family friends (i know you're reading this :)) in Alburqurque so the drive wasn't bad. THANK YOU KRISTEN!!!!! The boys were checked out by the time we got there. They have such a cute family and the girls just adored our little Camden. He liked them too...it was a toss up between them and their dog. hee hee :)

So, now that we are here, I've been working almost every day. The first week was training and now is my DAY 1 on my own. Going great and I enjoy the job. However, I MISS those boys! This has been really good for me though...reminds me how much I love being a mommy and also how grateful I am that Heath will be the working one. (eventually) He tried to find a job too but I got an offer so we took it. Heath is being Mr. Mom and last night I asked him how he was holding up and he said, 'he's ready for me to be done last week.' :) Last Friday, I came home exhausted and the second I held Camden I started to cry. I hate that I'm missing just small moments and the second I get home, he won't let me go. It's really sweet but it also breaks my heart a little. I'm not devastated because I know it's only for a short time. On the whole other hand, it's really nice doing something I am good at again and being appreciated. My boss and associates seem thrilled with my work and have told me I can come back and work for them anytime. It's also a good reminder that I have some brains and that 2 kids haven't completely drained all my mindpower. :) I get off early tomorrow so I can prepare for Santa. We're going to make sugar cookies and sing Christmas songs all day! Can't believe it's Christmas but i love this time of year. Will blog again shortly.

Merry Christmas!!!

2009-12-23T12:28:00.000-08:00

my nose is cold my toes are froze....

2009-12-09T10:46:00.000-08:00

There's something wrong with this picture...everytime I've written, it's COLD. I think I forgot I lived in Colorado. oops. :) Last night, it got down to negative 36 with windchill and this morning it was negative 15 with no wind. I'm cold there's nothing else to it. I figure I better write about some things bc I'll have little or no time in the next few days to update with pics. So what's been going on in our lives????

First thing, we went to California for Thanksgiving and had a great time with my family. We did the Thousand Oaks Turkey Day Dash, ate homemade rolls, delicious turkey, stuffing, etc...the works. We sewed like no other! I finished a Christmas banner and an apron for my best friend's birthday. (Lane, I need a pic of you looking so domestically chic in it!) Got pedis and mostly just hung out, caught up on some Arrested Development episodes, went to Ventura Pier for tandem bikes and such, ate The Habit, That pretty much sums up a great Thanksgiving with family. pics to come for these.

Well, while we were there, Heath and I celebrated our 7th WEDDING ANNIVERSARY! Can you believe it? I feel old. My parents watched the kids and we had a much needed night out. It was just dinner but it was really nice to have dinner, talk and enjoy the Christmas scenery....ice skating rink and lighted trees. We were going to walk around but it got pretty chilly. I love these dates. We have such a great time together and I can just be myself with him and he loves me for it. The food was good but the company was better :) I love you Heath and I think I keep falling....

Got back from a great trip and it's been cold cold cold. Even too cold to enjoy the snow or sledding. We did go to a city winter wonderland celebration and it was super fun and FREE. Jace loved it and had fun with all the games. It was too cold to stay longer than an hour but it was a great family outing.

Let's see, we'll be in Arizona for three weeks because I sort of got a job! We've been looking for seasonal work to earn money during this break. I got a call back and they pretty much have given me the position they just want to meet me first. The hours aren't bad and I think a little break from full time mommyhood might be okay. I'll be the front desk receptionist at a private airport for a couple weeks. Maybe meet some celebrities taking their jet out for the weekend. :) Will def. enjoy seeing Heath's family and all the cousins.

I need to do so many things..clean the house, pack, clean out the fridge, go to the store, organize papers, bills, coupons, find a portable dvd player, finish my sock monkeys for kiddos, finish a tote bag, write Christmas letters, design a digital christmas card (no money this year) I don't think I'm going to get all done before we leave tomorrow so I'll just start with the most important...cleaninng. How come this always comes first. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to not care that the house is not in pristine order and the meals aren't planned. I can't live like that, i'd go even more crazy. :)

Oh, and did I mention Camden has croup and strep. So much fun! But really it hasn't been bad just a fever, irritability, stuffy runny nose and being hoarse. poor baby. He's been sleeping fine so that's what's important. :)

Hopefully, my next post will be a CHRISTMAS CARD TO ALL OF YOU! Warmest wishes for the holidays and travel safely.

Sunday

2009-12-06T10:54:00.001-08:00

Today is snowy and cold but it seems appropriate because it's finally December. It's amazing how snow can really make it feel like Christmas. growing up in California, I am accustomed to sunny Christmases but this seems to bring an added feeling to this time of year. I set up 0ur Christmas decorations and manger scene. Yet, it only lasted a day until Jace got a hold of it and I had to pack the whole thing away. Look forward to the day when I can have a place to put it where the kids won't touch it. I find it ironic that Thanksgiving comes before Christmas this year. It's so easy to think of the many things we don't have this year but I've been prepped with Thanksgiving and am grateful for the many things we do have. This year, we're focusing on the things that really matter. I guess these are my favorite christmases because you don't get lost in the commercialism and presents.

First Birthday

2009-12-03T20:01:00.000-08:00

Jace helped me make a Happy Birthday sign for Camden and he was so excited to hang it up for him!

Carrying on the tradition of balloons! It just makes the day more fun! Camden loved them and kept walking after them yelling, "ball"
so happy!

The day after his actual Birthday, we tried again with the birthday cake. He ate a little, but Jace and I ate more. :)

Jace and Daddy bought Cam his first football! He goes crazy when he sees Heath's ball so we got him his own. He already can catch it by himself and throw it (he's a lefty so far)

'Happy Birthday to You' didn't go over so well. :) He looks so frightened poor baby. The attention was a little much for him. He didn't even touch the football cake. I was yet again disappointed. Jace didn't touch his first cake either.

I made two football cakes for his Birthday in hopes that he would grab it thinking it was real. (Heath's idea) The cake may I add was delicious. Yumm....cookies and cream cake with chocolate frosting. mmmm...

Camden enjoying his birthday dinner. I made his favorite-sweet and sour meatballs. :)

There's our little guy all grown up. goes by way too fast.

It's coming

2009-12-03T15:43:00.000-08:00

I have a lot of catch up to do so stay posted. Just thought I'd write for now. Today it's freezing outside. We got back from California on Monday and it's been really cold since. To be exact, today's high is 17 and low is 4. Subsequently, I let Heath drive the car to school so he didn't freeze on the way home from the light rail. Oh, and he has to walk now because someone stole his bike seat..yes, just the seat. weird. The boys have been sick the last couple days but we're hanging in there. It just now hit me how tired I am staying up with Camden for two hours last night. Well, I held him for two hours and thankfully he wasn't screaming. He felt quite content in mommy's arms. Besides being up so late, it was kinda nice to cuddle with him. He gives the best hugs though! He runs towards me and tucks his arms to his sides and puts his head on my shoulders. it melts my heart. I'll try to tape it sometime because it's hard to explain. So, that's it for now. just felt like writing.

I am grateful for....

2009-11-11T21:39:00.001-08:00

Our sweet little boy Camden who turned ONE years old today!!! I can't believe how fast time goes. It feels like just yesterday I held this sweet tiny little baby and welcomed him into this world...so small that I felt like he was going to break in my arms. He came out screaming and hasn't stopped since! He has a fiesty little personality. He throws everything he can get his hands on, is discovering all sorts of new drawers and cubbords, loves to play the "uh oh" game of throwing things down to watch mommy pick them up. Really is a happy little guy who just can't get enough of mommy daddy and especially Jace's love and attention. We LOVE you our sweet Camden and our so happy you are in our family! I love coming to your crib when you wake up and seeing your face light up when you see me. You snuggle me for a few minutes and then are ready and rearing to go and explore! I love you and love being your mommy!!

Born: November 11th

FUll NaME: Camden Heath Reed
CuRRent NicKnaMes: Cam Cam
FeaTure moSt LiKE MomS: Blue Eyes
FeatURe Most LiKe DaDs: love for sports, anything that looks like a ball

BuRps... less than Dad
Squeals....more than DAd
CriEs.... more than Mom
SMiLeS When... Jace blows on his tummy
FaVoriTe Toy.... football, baseball, basketball, play computer
FavoRitE SoNg....I am a Child of God
FaVoRitE BooK.... The Doggy Book
FavoRite Words.... Bye, Uh Oh, Yes, That? This?, Ball
FaVoRiTe FoOds ... meatballs, cheerios, chicken, carrots and bannanas
FaVoriTe NoiSe.... vroom vroom with his cars and trucks (it's adorable)

Believes Hand Puppets are really alive...
Full time walking since... Halloween
Bumps head into furniture, corners, cubbords... everyday

After one year, If we had to guess, baby's profession, it would be... night watchman because he LOVES being up at all hours of the night. :)

Today I am grateful for...

2009-11-10T20:27:00.000-08:00

unexpected blessings.

Happy Halloween

2009-11-06T14:17:00.000-08:00

We had a fantabulous Halloween this year! Due to 20 inches of snow, they cancelled our Trunk or Treat on Wednesday so we have less candy laying around the house, which is a VERY good thing bc I'm the one who ends up eating it all. Our second planned activity was a Spook Alley at Keller Williams Realty. I couldn't believe all the work that went into it! It was short but scary and we got to tread through some snow to get there. And finally, the day of Halloween...we went to a great dinner at our friend's house and then went trick or treating with all the kids! The weather was significantly warmer but there was still a nip in the air. Jace, as always, LOVED it! I took Camden up to one door just so he could get the feel of it. That family adored him and his little chicken suit! It was a great couple days and Jace still asks me if we are going to have halloween today. I have a pretty darn handsome little fireman here and the cutest little chicken you ever did see. Oh and during trick or treating, a lot of people had fireplace burning bc of the cold weather. Jace says, "Mom, I smell smoke." Wow, he's really in character, and man he has some keen senses. :) I love these boys! (Ryan, sorry about the fireman thing again...I just can't kick Jace's passion for it. You should be happy to know though that he talks about his uncle, the policeman all the time :) The Holidays are upon us and I just can't believe it's November and nearly Christmas. We are sure looking forward to Thanksgiving in California and Christmas in Arizona.

Grateful Day #1

2009-11-05T12:57:00.001-08:00

I am grateful for the most beautiful weather we are enjoying today-74 degrees ~ I love the weather in Colorado! You can have a snow blizzard and the next week 70 degree weather. It sure is fickle but I never complain about more sunshine!!!!

Mommy, wow, I'm a big boy now!

2009-11-05T10:17:00.000-08:00

Camden started walking full time last week. Now, it's just about all he does. He is fast and can certainly get into things now. It's crazy how fast they learn. I am still amazed at the miracle of this little life.

I have thoughts

2009-11-03T21:09:00.000-08:00

As you can tell, we've had a lot going on and I have more to update but for now I just wanted to blog about some things I've been thinking about. A couple days ago, I watched the movie, Marley and Me. Have any of you seen it? It was really good. It really paralled real life, atleast mine, at times....first comes love, then comes marriage, then comes...babies....and all that goes with it...stress, laughter, sleepless nights, tears, frustration, true joy, sacrifice, hard work, love, surprises, jobs, choices, etc.. STOP HERE IF YOU DON'T WANT IT SPOILED. In the movie, Owen Wilson struggles with the job that he's given as a columnist. He feels like its a less prestigious position, but what's ironic is that he's really good at his job but he can't get past the idea of himself as a reporter. It's like the grass is always greener. He finally gets the job he's been dreaming about, moves his whole family to another state only to realize he doesn't like being a reporter and would prefer the freedom of writing a column.

Now, on the other hand, Jennifer Aniston struggles with the transition of working to the realites of being a full-time mom. At one point, she talks about how this was her CHOICE. I've thought about that a lot through the years. Someday, I'm going to tell my kids, "I could've done a lot of things with my life, but I chose to be your mother." We make a CHOICE everyday.

I like the movies that make you think and evaluate your life. It's not like it made me want to really change anything, it just made me want to embrace life that much more and perhaps appreciate what I have instead of what I don't. Which leads me to my next topic: GRATITUDE.

Stay tuned: I'll be posting daily about what I am grateful for this month in lieu of Thanksgiving.

Mimi and Boompa Visit Colorado

2009-11-03T21:04:00.000-08:00

Pumpkin Patch

2009-11-03T20:48:00.000-08:00

Took the kiddos to the pumpkin patch this year. I could only get one picture of Camden in the pumpkins without him falling through them. We went with our good friends, the Burgers. Jace's best friends really. He never stops talking about Brooklyn and Taylor. Later that week, I had the kids over to do a fun craft. It was the easiest thing ever. White cups, glue, googley eyes, pipe cleaners, stickers and markers. They had a ball making their treat cups. I really love halloween and all the fun around fall. Yet, fall mostly skipped us this year. We only had a couple days with amazing colors because we had such an early frost.

Snow!!!!

2009-11-03T20:09:00.000-08:00

Sewing

2009-10-20T20:45:00.000-07:00

Many of you may not know, but I LOVE to sew. When I was younger, I had sewed some awful dresses for personal progress, a jean quilt that I still love, some teddy bears and a baby blanket. A couple years ago, a bunch of us gals from my ward got together and started playing around with our sewing machines! And thus started the Secret Stitch Club. I, at first, went to just chat it up with my friends, but I started my first apron and really enjoyed it. Whether it was because I was sewing with friends that shared my passion or that I was actually creating something I enjoyed, whatever the reason, I realized that taking time for a few simple stitches made me happy!

So, one of my best friends has requested to see some of my sewing projects. Lane, this is for you! I'm still a beginner but I love starting a new project and seeing it to the finish! I would LOVE to start quilting but I can't until we have more money..aka a stable job...bc I know once i start making blankets, you won't be able to stop me. My next projects include... the most adorable reversible apron, sock monkeys, another birdie sling.

dear sewing, thank you for finding me. I look forward to many happy years together. :)

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Video Updates

2009-10-19T10:50:00.000-07:00

I took this video a couple weeks ago of Camden starting to walk. Already he is taking more steps and I need to catch that soon too! He also likes to boogie when he hears music. Enjoy!

I heart Mesa

2009-10-10T11:33:00.000-07:00

Hey! Most of you know we have a lot of ties to Mesa still! in fact, I don't know anyone that has more passion and interest in this city then Heath! Well, check out this web site for this photo giveaway! http://iheartmesa.blogspot.com/

Only One of You

2009-10-08T21:06:00.000-07:00

It's amazing how reading can change your perspective so much. Today, as I was sitting in the doctor's office with Jace for his egg challenge, I was reading a book called, 'the mother in me.' My mom gave me this book a while ago, and it's a compilation of short stories from mothers and their experiences, inspirations and reflections about motherhood. Today, I read about a mom who well was just so tired of the mundane and somehow lost who she was amongst her many duties and demands. I've thought about this a lot because, I too have found myself, at time, slipping into this mentality, and that's when I realize I need to do something that I enjoy to feel like me again! At 35, (which hello is not even old...well maybe not to me anymore bc it seems to be inching closer) she decides to take a ballet class. During so, she reads this quote:

" There is a vitality, a life force, an energy, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all of time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and it will be lost. The world will not have it."

I read it about 3 times to let it sink in. What an amazing and empowering quote! We all have something to offer; service to render or creativity to indulge. Whatever circumstance, situation, condition, stage of life, each of us can embrace our life and become whatever we want to be. One of the constant threads through this story was that by this time in her life, she felt like she'd been torn apart with hardly identifieable pieces of herself. We should never feel selfish doing something for ourselves. I have found I am a better mom, wife, friend..even person, when I have done something I enjoy. It makes so much sense because obviously you are a happier person, if you are happy with yourself.

So, there's my rant and rave for the day. Can't wait to embrace and live life tomorrow! Hey, today, all i did was turned up the music really loud while I cleaned the house and it was just for me!!!!

Vote for Camden!!!!

2009-10-06T15:29:00.000-07:00

GAP Baby Casting Call

Please vote for Camden

Baby Boy ID: 886048303

Just visit http://www.gap.com/castingcall/ and enter the Contestant ID!!!

Could this face be any cuter! I just adore him and really think he'd be quite a stunning little Gap baby! If you have a second, vote for him. You can vote everyday until contest ends. Thank you so much!!!

P.S. No, I won't be mad if you go now and enter your own little kiddos! That's understandable. :)

Fight in Pink

2009-10-06T12:11:00.001-07:00

Last Sunday, the family and I did the Race for the Cure! (walked the 5K) This last year, I've become friends with this girl, Becky in our ward. Her mother in law, Juli (also in our ward), has been diagnosed with breast cancer 3 x in the last 10 years. This year, the young women wanted to be involved and the bishop said it was the gospel in action..serving others. In total, they ended up having over 150 people on Team Juli! It was absolutely incredible to see the support and love from so many for one person. I've been thinking about this for a while...about why it's a race and why we walk to show our support. I think, in a way, it's symbolic of their fight bc these women find a way to put one foot in front of the other every day--they keep getting up and facing the journey ahead of them and just like this race, they are not alone. It was overwhelming to see the many names and faces pinned to people's backs in memory of this person and their fight. some win and some ...lose. Juli, has just found out that it's spread to her brain now. Yet, the moto on our shirts said, Doubt Not, Fear Not, Only Believing! And I think against all odds, she can beat it! We don't understand the kind of trials we are asked to go through sometimes, but Juli is a great example that we can have faith, courage and joy through it. The event had 53,000 people in attendance and oh, go to this link to see the symbol formed from our walk from the sky.

http://www.9news.com/genthumb/genthumb.ashx?e=3&h=204&w=320&i=/assetpool/images/091004011825_race-for-the-cure.jpg

Old Mcdonald had a ....

2009-09-29T20:49:00.000-07:00

One of our last weeks in Thousand Oaks, we took Jace to this big farm where you can pick your own vegetables, fruit, and flowers. We picked strawberries and rasberries and they were amazing! They had pony rides, petting zoo, adventure zone, train rides, tractor bumper cars, mining for gold and a lot more. We fed the goats that walked across beams above our heads. Jace got to ride Tinkerbell, the pony. No other kids were riding the train, so they let him DRIVE the train. Picking strawberries was a very messy job! There were bees everywhere and squished strawberries up to your ankles. But they were worth it!! Here are some more pictures from that awesome day. We had a blast! Now we are searching for something like it here in Colorado.

JOY

2009-09-28T20:21:00.000-07:00

Day 25 on 28

2009-09-28T20:08:00.000-07:00

I know. I know. I've skipped a couple days. This experience has taught me a couple things. First, I really have gotten in a better habit of writing and have really enjoyed that. Second, there are a lot of things I can do with my time that give me "my time" besides blogging....which I seem to enjoy like sewing, exercising, reading, digital scrapbooking, baking. Third, people don't blog as much as I thought they did. Fourth, the best things about my life are my husband and two kids. Fifth and last, I like blogging a lot more when I don't have the pressure to think of something to write about. So, in light of this, I've decided to just make a goal to do something for myself everyday, it could be blogging but it doesn't have to be.

Enjoy the next posts so that will be solely dedicated to my boys who make me smile everyday.

Day 24 - Memories

2009-09-24T20:16:00.000-07:00

I never did this when everyone did last year, but I've always wanted to. If you read this, even if we haven't talked or seen eachother in forever, can you leave a comment of a memory you and I had together! Thanks! I can't wait to see what everyone comes up with.

Day 23 - One More Day

2009-09-23T20:07:00.000-07:00

This morning, I woke up pretty discouraged that I had to face the day with no husband around again. In fact, most mornings are hard because I know I won't see Heath until 11 that night. But, my boys turned my day around. I can't whine or pout about my life when my kids around, so I couldn't help smiling and laughing and playing with them, which domino into a good mood. Sure, we had our moments of frustration and wrestle fits with a couple bumps and bruises, but it was a good day. It poured rain all day. Hmm.. random thought, for those of you statisticians out there I guarantee you can run a test that finds a statistical significance between rainy days and me being in a good mood. Of course, Heath helped too because he is so loving and understanding and he knowing me so well knew that I wanted to be mad, but texted me to help me let go of my childish attitude. At the end of the day, I realized that I find pride in what I do at home, even if it is the laundry, dishes, dirty diapers etc. How this translates into motivation to clean the whole kitchen before Heath got home, I'm not sure. But, I knew that the only way to show that I was okay and supportive was to get the house in order.

Day 22 - Yipee

2009-09-22T19:24:00.001-07:00

Yeah! Today we found out that the school accepted our appeal and we got in-state tuition! What a huge blessing! Our prayers were answered.

Day 21

2009-09-21T18:46:00.001-07:00

Thanks Angie for inspiring this post....

Things I love:

hearing Heath come home from a long day at school
reading books to Jace
Camden's adorable laugh
seeing a good friend's phone number on my caller id
getting a package in the mail
following the spirit and knowing I did what was right
being a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints
fall TV Shows - Office, American Idol, SYTYCD, Psych...
laying in bed talking with Heath for hours
the smell of rain in the dessert
learning and singing the notes of a new song
rainy days period.
music. music. music.
saturday morning pancakes
watching Heath and Jace play baseball, football, wrestle, swords. He's the best daddy!!!
sewing something new and loving my creation!!
reading the first page of a great mystery novel (not the last--that means its over)
dancing when no one is watching
dawn at Carpenteria beach
hearing stories about my grandparents' childhood
watching my favorite chick flicks
editing a paper or resume (I know, I'm crazy)
seeing my babies learn and grow every day

i could keep going on....

Day 20

2009-09-20T21:13:00.000-07:00

Today's high was 78 degrees. Cann you guess what tomorrow's high will be? ..................... Did you say 48 degrees! Yikes. I guess they aren't kidding when they say today was the last day of summer. I was thinking today of how amazing it is to travel a couple hours and be in a completely different climate. Isn't that great, though? Snowing in Colorado and can fly to Arizona to enjoy the sun. I'm not so sure I'm ready for cold weather again. That's something weird about Colorado is you never know what clothes to leave out. In Arizona, I can pack away anything that remotely reflects warm clothing. Here, you can be wearing a short sleeved tshirt and capris one day and a snow coat and boots the next. I need to expand my wardrobe...oh wait, I have no money to do that. Guess it'll have to wait. I am excited to see what this fall and winter has in store for us this year. I am definitely looking forward to the amazing colorful seasons of fall.

Day 19- Perspective

2009-09-19T21:55:00.000-07:00

Understandably, all of us have our individual struggles and personal trials to overcome in this lifetime. And, not to undermine any of your trials, but I've had a fresh dose of perspective these last couple weeks that makes my trials look like nothing. When Heath and I were first married we were in a great ward with so many amazing young couples. We had a blast! Among these couples, were our friends, the Dixons. A couple years ago we reconnected through the blogging world and when Heath went to Portland to check out the grad school, they graciously let him stay with them. Since then, Alissa and I have stayed in touch through our blogs. A couple weeks ago, I found out that she was having some serious complications with her fourth pregnancy. Her unborn baby, Maddox, has something called hydrops. You can read the story here. . Their journey of heartache and faith has touched me and has really reminded me of what it means to have an eternal perspective. But, I guess the reason I'm writing this is because I know they need as many prayers as they can get. If you can, read their story and say a prayer for their family. It's amazing how much the Lord's hands have played a part in their lives. Come to think of it, I can see the Lord's hands in all our lives.

Day 18

2009-09-19T06:33:00.000-07:00

Sorry about not writing yesterday. I've had a couple of really hard nights and long days. Being up all night doesn't make facing the morning very fun. The boys have been sick and only having one bedroom for them has been interesting, to say the least. I would get one to sleep just to have the other wake up. I've been up for 2-3 hours every night. I finally moved Jace out to the couch so Camden wouldn't wake him up. Last night was much better bc Camden only woke up at 3 and Jace slept soundly in his own bed. It's the pitts having sick kids. I feel so helpless like I can't do anything to help them. Hopefully, they will be feeling better today. Jace's medicine makes him more wild than he already is so I'm sure you can imagine how exhausted I am. After I put them to bed, I go to bed. I didn't have my sewing group this week so I'll probably end up sewing tonight. Hope so!!! Heath is of course studying again this Saturday, so it might be another long day but I've got some ideas to make playing inside fun. I'll write again later tonight.

Day 17

2009-09-17T19:14:00.000-07:00

Woke up wishing the day to be over before it began.

Day 16 - Today's List

2009-09-16T20:56:00.000-07:00

Isn't it crazy how fast time goes. It seems like you make one decision just to turn around and be ready to make another big decision. We just finished our summer in California, and yet we are faced with what to do next summer already. Life is in fastforward and sometimes I feel like I can't get a handle on it. Do you ever wish you just had one full day to catch up? And even then, I'm sure it would take more than a day to get ahead of the curve. I guess this is why I have to look at my days in baby steps. I have to do it that way or I would be frustrated all day that I didn't get everything done. I like my today lists instead of my to do lists...bc that goes on forever.
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Thoughts:

Surprisingly, Heath and I don't have one of these. (someday when we have money)

I would love this

Unfortunately, our car needs this.

Day 15

2009-09-15T21:33:00.000-07:00

Whenever I make my bed in the morning, I end up having a much better day. One thing in my life that can be in order.

Day 14 - As a Mother

2009-09-14T21:12:00.000-07:00

Today, I was listening to Dr. Laura on my way back from picking up Jace from preschool. It was funny bc she told a lady that no 3 yr. old should ever be in preschool. I thought about that bc well, Jace was in preschool when he was 3. We did have some extenuating circumstances and I don't think I'll put Camden in that early, but in this case, it was okay. Dr. Laura said "there's nothing your 3 yr. old can learn in preschool that he can't learn from you, his mother." I've always been a strong believer in starting at home. I take every opportunity to teach Jace when I can. Yet, Jace has flourished in preschool. He soaks it all in and does well in a controlled setting. In fact, he has a personality that craves structure. Sure, kids still turn out wonderful without preschool. In Jace's case, I am glad that he's been in preschool. Also, because of his drive to learn and be actively engaged, he's had so many great experiences that I can't always give him. This summer was really good for us because I tried to do an activity with Jace every day. It helped me get in a good habit of getting out of the house and fueling his energy or should I say, using up some of his energy. That's one thing I love about being a mom. I love thinking of fun free things to do and being creative doing so. I have to send a shout out though to all those AMAZING moms out there! I was reminded on Sunday that I am the only one that can be my boys' mother. It's my place, my job and my responsibility. When I think of it that way, I have an increased desire to do my part and do my best to raise and love these boys the best I can.

Day 13

2009-09-13T20:55:00.000-07:00

It's not that I don't like blogging, it's just lately I've seen it as something else to do on my checklist. I don't want it to be like that and perhaps it's because I have to think of something to write about each time. Instead of a topic today, I'm just going to write. Today was a good day at church. I thought choir practice started today so Heath dropped me off early and drove home. Well, no practice. I sat in the chapel for an hour just sitting, thinking, reading the hymn book (didn't have my scriptures.) To be honest, it was quite nice to just have some peace and quiet. And yet, in the back of my head, I was hoping everything was going okay at home and feeling guilty I wasn't there to help Heath out with the boys. Jace has been exceptionally active as of late. I just can't figure this kid out. I want to embrace his energy for life and who he is, but somedays, it takes all my strength and patience to not burst. He's getting more aggressive toward Camden, and I don't think he's trying to be mean, he just doesn't know when to stop.... that's with everything though. We've racked our brains with good consequences, but nothing seems to work. Any ideas????? He won't sit in time out, he doesn't care if we take toys away and even if he cares for the moment, he does the exact same thing that got him in trouble a second later, which means he's not learning. Just venting. There's got to be a better way to teach him. We even tried a strike system. I think I'm going to try a reward system next...maybe then he'll get it. Good night whoever out there reading.

Day 12

2009-09-12T20:12:00.000-07:00

I've always wanted to travel but never really had the means to do so. When I was at Ricks, I went on a bus with a school group to see some church history sites. I loved it! I've been to Texas when I was little. Went to New Orleans on a business trip. I've been to California, Arizona, Oregon, Washington, Utah, Idaho, Colorado. A couple years ago, I went to Hawaii and that was an amazing experience, which I never even imagined I'd have until later in life. Thank you to my boss for that!!! All things considered, I guess I'm a west coaster. Yet, I REALLY want to go see some more of the world. I've decided to talk about the top 3 places I want to go.

First and foremost, I've always wanted to go Italy. Growing up, I wanted to serve a mission for my church and I always imagined I would go to Italy. I don't know if it's the amazing architecture, unique design of the small cities, yummy food, or the beautiful scenery, but I wanted to go there. The mission didn't work out obviously...my mission was to find my sweet hubby and start a family. Someday..

Second, New York. I heart New York. I've never even been there but I know I would LOVE it. This city seems to be brimming with life, passion, and excitement. I'd like to take a cab, try a NY pizza pie, steak sub, serendipity, etc....food food. I LOVE food, see ground zero, the giant Christmas tree, ice skate in Central park, and every other tourist thing you can think of. This will have to be later in life so I actually have money to enjoy it!

Third, Kauai, HI. Yes, I've been to Hawaii but we went to the Big Island. Kauai looks so exotic and adventurous with hidden springs, lush cliffs, and private white sandy beaches. Ahh...the relaxation. The Big Island was gorgeous but lots and lots of lava....not so much beach space.

Day 11 - Ode to Camden

2009-09-11T22:01:00.001-07:00

Camden is 10 months today!!! I can't believe how fast he is growing. I just ADORE him!! For 10 months, 10 things about Camden.

1) He already has 5 teeth and i love his smile. He lights up any bad day.

2) He is tough. He can take Jace jumping on him, squishing him, and wrestling him all day.

3) He loves his brother more than anyone!!! He can be completely upset and Jace will walk in the room and he'll immediately stop and start smiling.

4) He can say mama, dada and uh oh.

5) He LOVES being outside. If Jace and Daddy go play basketball, he'll climb over me to look out the window and watch them or crawl to the door, stand up and yell. And yes, I always take him out there.

6) He is a screamer!! I need to teach him sign language so he can communicate bc I can't take his screaming. wow. he has some lungs

7) He loves playing catch with me and can throw any ball. He loves taking baths, playing little piggies, being tackled by Jace, cars, animals and people!!! He'll smile and woo any old lady in the grocery store.

8) He is still a little guy. Weighing 16 lbs. but this kid LOVES to eat. Anything and everything that's on my plate, of course.

9) Knee n' foot: His crawling method. He won't crawl with both knees. it cracks me up.

10) He took his first step yesterday! Heath and I were both there for it. He was standing up holding Cam's fingers and let go. He stood for a second and then took a step.

Day Ten

2009-09-11T12:11:00.001-07:00

Sorry - had a migrane. no post.

Day Nine

2009-09-09T22:18:00.001-07:00

Spent my blogging time designing my blog. Probably will change it again...that's the fun of it!

Day Eight - Jace Adventures

2009-09-08T20:48:00.000-07:00

Here's a summary of some of Jace's summer adventures! We took a lot of beach trips! He finally would venture into the ocean but was more than happy to play in the sand all day.

We signed him up for swimming lessons and he did great!! I was so proud of him. He was the only one in his group that would whole heartedly jump in the water and go for it.

Our sweet neighbor invited Jace to march in their 4th of July street parade. He was the hit of the parade with his flute and march. Everyone stopped and said how cute he was! This boy has such a love for life and an amazing passion for music. All I had to say was, you can play your flute, and he was there in a heart beat. He has no fear of being infront of people and def. LOVES the spotlight. :)

Jace loves sports and for the last year, it's all been about baseball! We found an affordable class this summer in T-ball. He loved fielding the balls in the outfield and throwing them to the catcher. His favorite thing was hitting, of course. I'll have to upload the video. He's dang good and has quite an arm.

The last week in Thousand Oaks, we went to the mall's kids club activity. They had Gymboree come and do songs and dances with the kids. Afterwards, a local orchestra brought every instrument you can think of for the kids to touch and play. Of course, Jace was beyond excited. He played a trombone, trumpet, xylophone, drums, harp, celo, violin and flute. What a great activity for kids to be introduced to musical instruments.

Day Seven

2009-09-07T20:46:00.000-07:00

What a fun day we had today! We talked about going to Boulder or downtown Denver to celebrate Labor Day but we decided to just hang out around here. Heath wanted to check out if this new burger place had opened up, so we decided to drive down there first. On our way, we spotted this great park, Bellview park. We went around the corner to a Little Ceasars, grabbed a 5$ pizza and drinks and headed to the park. It was totally spur of the moment and we had a blast! Cam and I just chilled on the blanket under the trees and Jace and Heath explored the creek, which runs through the park and kids were playing in it everywhere. We rode the train there for $1 and went through a dark tunnel and over two bridges. JACE was in Seventh Heaven!!! (Yeah, so all you Colorado moms, this would be a great cheap outing during the summer. Today, however, was the last day the train runs.) He can't get enough of trains...still. He got a picture with the conductor and he let him ring the bell. I didn't have the camera bc i didn't know we were doing all this fun stuff. Originally, we were going to do putt putt. Guess we'll do that another day. We had a fun day and spent hardly any money. Having a great day doesn't have to mean spending lots of money, it's just being together.

Day Six - Four Letter Word

2009-09-06T21:56:00.000-07:00

Please proceed with caution as the following language contains a four-letter word.........................D-E-B-T. Pres. Hinckley has said to get as much education as you can and he's also said going into debt for education is understandable. Well, that's where we're at right now. Heath...still getting an education and us going into more debt. Gratefully, we've been able to secure some free money but it hardly makes a dent in the loans. Seriously, how does anyone do it and still live and have a family? Living off loans seems worth it so I can be with the kids but it feels like now we'll have to pay for loans for a while. I have faith that this schooling will lead us to a bright future and hopefully a successful career path for Heath. I can't understand why grad students don't get any pell grants. It seems like we are the ones that need it the most. It's actually gone faster than I thought it would and i'm hoping that trend continues bc his schedule this semester is hard. Oh, what a four-letter word!!

Day 5 - Current Vice

2009-09-05T20:38:00.000-07:00

Day Four

2009-09-04T19:55:00.000-07:00

Heath just asked me what I did today that was interesting. I laughed. Let's see, as a mom, I do a lot of things but are they interesting...changed diapers, fed and bathed the kids, did the dishes, made the bed, did the laundry, folded clothes, organized cubbords, cleaned up toys...all day, took a shower, played catch with Camden, built lego robots with Jace, was made into a pizza, tried to download Skype for an hour, danced around the room to Dan Zane and the Backyardigans, made dinner, cleaned up messes.

It's funny how my days are made up of all these little things but they are all so important. I used to dream of being a busy mom. Is that crazy? I would picture my life married with 4 or 5 kids driving them to and from practice, appts, playdates, taking care of the house in the middle of it all, teaching them about faith and life, and making yummy snacks and scrumptious dinners. Crazy thing is, I still want this. I LOVE being a mom...even if it is crazy and can take every last inch of patience. The last couple weeks, we've juggled the idea of me going back to work to help our financial situation (loans galore). I can tell you that everytime it came to my mind, I would get choked up. I can't even imagine my life any different and without these two sweet boys in my life....even if it were for a couple hours a day. I used to work full time. I did up until Jace was almost 3. Then, it was different and I knew nothing else. Now, I know what it's like to stay home fulltime and I don't want anything else. Sure, there are plenty of days where going to work would be a HUGE relief and a nice break. But, then I think about missing even a moment of Camden changing and learning something new or Jace saying something like, "i like riding elegators." He has a hard time with his "v." For now, I'm not going back but I'm still toying with the idea of doing something from home. I just can't let go of how much I could help pay off our loans. I know we'll know what to do if it's right and most of all I know that the Lord guides and directs us everyday. How grateful I am to know that family is the most important and he'll make it possible to accomplish the thing that he's commanded of us.

Day Three

2009-09-03T21:51:00.000-07:00

It's nearly 11 p.m. at night and I want to go to bed but remembered I had yet to post today. I just finished cutting out all the fabric for my next sewing project. I've finally started the Colorado chapter of the Secret Stitch Club. Now that I know when the baby will be asleep, it's much easier to handle anyone coming over. I invited 3 girls but only one was able to make it! I'm so excited though to start sewing again. I'm making the Phoebe bag. Heath is at school until 11 p.m. at night 3 days of the week so I figured what would be better to take up my time than sewing! Certainly more fulfilling than wasting my time watching tv. My bed is looking great right now. Until tomorrow.

Day Two

2009-09-02T20:07:00.000-07:00

I sit here with alot on my mind. Today was a hot day but right now it's raining and I LOVE the smell of rain. One thing I loved about Arizona...the smell of the desert rain. So, what I've been thinking about a lot is Pres. Obama and his speech next Tuesday to grade schoolers. I think it would be fine if he went to motivate the children to have a passion for education, but it goes further than that. He wants the children to idolize him. If he's really interested in improving the education system by talking about the importance of education, why isn't he talking to high school students too? Afterall, they are the ones at the forefront of higher education. Oh yeah, that's right, grade school kids are still impressionable. Now, why is he asking the teachers to have the kids write down goals they can set that can help the president further his goals..and then be accountable to the government for them? Now don't you think that's going too far? There is definitely an underlying political agenda attached to this speech. Some parents are talking about not having their kids go to school that day. It's not only about whether or not they hear it, it's that he's trying to control another aspect of our lives. I will be the one to teach my children about what's right and wrong. It starts at home. There are so many versions of the truth these days, It's so important as parents that we are the ones to instill strong values, morals, and beliefs.

You can still respect the president but don't have to agree with his policies, choices or opinions. What if they don't want to do something that helps further the president's agenda? What then? They are probably too young to even question it, so instead, they will do as he says and be seen as the great president who makes all good decisions for this country. What are your thoughts? I'm sure I've ruffled somebody's feathers. But, if you'd like to comment in a respectful manner, I'm sure we could have an enlightened discussion.

Can I have your attention please...

2009-09-01T21:02:00.000-07:00

Last Sunday Jace gave his first talk in church. I had been rehearsing with him for a couple days b4 it and we talked about the temple alot to get him prepared. I was ready to whisper in his ear what to say....he didn't need that. When they said it was his turn, he walked right up to the microphone and said "Because of the temple, I know my family can be together forever. The temple is a house of God." I was so proud! It's amazing to see him saying what we've been teaching for years. I guess he has no fear of speaking infront of people. hmm...I think I knew that...mr. walk up to any stranger and start a conversation. :)

First Day

2009-09-01T20:25:00.000-07:00

Jace had his first day of preschool. He's actually been in a school setting for a while now. My dear friend, Maren let him go to preschool when he was not even 3 bc I was still working. Then, last year, he was in preschool for half a year bc of our move. Now, this will be his first full year of preschool!! Can't believe he's getting so big. I love that kid so much. Just tonight I was watching him brush his teeth and I got choked up. How come time goes so fast and these sweet babies grow up on us and become so independent. He rarely lets me hold his hand but he likes to snuggle at night still. Tonight, I was putting the boys to bed again. (without Daddy most nights bc school until 11 p.m.) I was rocking Camden, and Jace came over to sit with us. Camden leaned over and fell asleep on Jace's chest. Again, teary eyed. Camden ADORES Jace. He can do no wrong.

Day One

2009-09-01T15:56:00.001-07:00

So today is my first official day of the blogging promise. I have to say, over the last couple days, I've had doubts. How come I said I would do this. I never have any time as it is. Maybe if I don't do it, no one will care and I'll be off the hook. But... I would know and that means more to me than anyone else. It's really not even about writing about certain topics, it's more about being able to just take 5 minutes out of my day to do something that has to do with me. Although my blogs revolve around my two boys, I will try to venture out.

Today, I took the boys swimming at our complex pool. We met a woman and her son, (Jace's age) there last week and are going with them again today. It's funny because usually when I force myself to get out and do something fun with the kids (even though it can be hassle getting there), the event is well worth it and I usually get more out of it than expected. Like this last time, a new friend....for me and for Jace. Sure, it's easy to just sit inside and play or just relax (what's that?), but that doesn't stretch you. I have found everyone is happier when we do something out of the house. If you know anything about me, it's that I'm a people person. I enjoy getting out, inviting people over, meeting new friends and starting conversations. Whether it's going to the grocery store or the park, going out is good for everyone. :)

Acquarium

2009-08-27T12:36:00.000-07:00

WE took Jace to the Long Beach Acquarium. Ali and Ryan watched Camden at their house so we wouldn't have to hurry through in case he wasn't doing great. Jace loved seeing the seals, the Finding Nemo fish tank, the sharks and the water fountain (go figure):) We had a blast! He bought Camden a little stuffed animal turtle just like his and said they were brothers. How cute.

inspiration come

2009-08-26T20:47:00.001-07:00

I just got back from the movie, Julie and Julia with my friend, Jamie. I was inspired by Julie's drive to do something that stretched her to be a better person. I loved how Julia was always so positive. I assume she was truly like that....laughing or joking about when she could be angry, frustrated or sad. More than anything, it reminded me how nice it is to just write. just write. I used to do that a lot more often. In fact, I really miss it. Everything just comes out real when I write. no inhibitions, no judgement. I can just be me.

So, in lieu of this true story, I've been inspired to start writing again. Starting September 1st, I will blog everyday and end November 1st. So, two months of blogging everyday. Even if no one is reading it, I just want to start writing again...about anything. I've been non existent from the blogging world for a while. I was too busy having fun this summer. I guess blogs can be seen as a way to connect, an outlet, a brag platform, and for me, it's a starting point again to find the joy in writing.

I can remember in high school, we would have our 15 minute journal writing and the teacher would just write a topic on the board and we had to write about it. I'm going to do that. Each day, a new topic. If you have any suggested topics, please feel free to suggest. I'll decide what to write about but it will help me just start. Let the journey begin!!!

Before it starts, I'll have some posts about our summer fun. I better hurry though I only have a couple days. Before I forget, Jace's first day of preschool - he learned about coconut trees. :)

Trucking in T.O.

2009-08-04T09:26:00.000-07:00

Our second week in Thousand Oaks, we went to a city event called TOUCH - A - TRUCK. It was a 4-year old boy's 7th heaven!!! It was free and they let all the kids get in firetrucks, police trucks, delivery trucks, cement mixers, street washers, ambulances, army tanks, bulldozers, tractors....you get the idea! They had about 4 different firetrucks and we had to go in everyone. Jace got to honk horns and push buttons. He LOVED every moment. Camden was there too....and was a perfect baby just happy in his stroller enjoying the loud noisy trucks all morning. He even fell asleep eventually. We wanted to go in the helicopter but the line was soooo long! We settled for watching it take off and blow dust all over us. :) It was a great family outing! Jace wanted to stay all day...oh wait, we did!!!

F U N

2009-07-08T08:54:00.000-07:00

7 months already?

2009-06-13T16:40:00.000-07:00

What...can that really be? Our little Cam is sitting up, saying Mamma (which I LOVE), eating plenty of solids, scooting across the floor, growing - 14 lbs (Small for all of you but good for him. He was only 6 lbs 7 oz. when he was born.) And the newest develompent...he has 2 bottom teeth! Yikes...nursing might get interesting! Well, I wish I could say he was sleeping through the night but that'll come in time. :) He's just cuter than ever! I love him and he brings a smile to my face every day! He has a demanding personality so I'm thinking he'll be just like Jace...but, we'll see. Once he becomes mobile, I'm sure I'll have a better idea what this little guy is all about. Somedays, I think he looks like Jace did and other times, he doesn't. It's a toss up. The best part of having 2, is seeing how much Camden LOVES Jace and vice versa. Seriously, he watches his every move, laughs at him, smiles at him and talks to him.

Soud the Alarm!!!

2009-06-13T15:40:00.000-07:00

Jace turned 4!!! Happy Birthday Jace! This year, all he wanted was a fireman birthday party. He is still obsessed with all trucks, trains and moving vehicles...especially fire egines lately. In fact, every time we drive be a fire hydrant, he points it out. (That can get old when you realize how many are on just one street) We had the BEST birthday party ever!!!! Truly, I LOVED it! I made all the arrangements with our local fire station for a tour. We had a small group so the firemen were able to give the extended tour. They even said our group was so great so they just kept doing more activities....sitting in the firetruck, spraying the hose, seeing the axes and tools in the back, walking through the house. JACE was in heaven!! He was the birthday boy and got all the royal treatment he could ever wish for. They let him honk the horn and run the siren. Oh, and they had me see how fast I could put a fireman suit on...that was interesting...and oh so amazing heavy! Those firemen have to be extremely strong or extremely big! That stuff adds like 2o lbs. Afterwards, they gave all the kids a party favor bag and a hat. (totally unexpected!!!) We went to the park after that so the kids could run around and play, eat food and cake and open presents. I also made my first birthday cake--decorated and all (thanks to Denise :) I was so proud of it! Jace loved it so much that I've decided to make a cake every year....so worth it!!! It was really yummy too!!! It was a stress-free, fun-filled day!!!!
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Dear Jace, I just want you to know that I love you and love who you are. Sure, there are days that you make me want to pull my hair out, but those are always followed with days that make me so glad that I'm your mommy. You have the most energy of any kid I've ever seen. You have an amazing passion for life and learning. You always are trying to learn new things. In fact, you just learned the first 5 numbers in Chinese! Crazy! I'm amazed that you can go for hours running around, singing, playing the drums, imagining up how to build a town, playing baseball, shake your booty and still have energy for more. You certainly have a sweet side too. I love when you hold my face in your hands and kiss my forehead, I love that you LOVE when I come pick you up or get home and yell, "Oh, you're here!" and hug me around my legs. You are certainly a daddy's boy too. You love when Daddy is home to wrestle, play sports or just about anything wild with you. You are so funny....when I clean your room, you walk in and say, 'Oh, thank you mommy, it's all clean.' You are so appreciative and that makes me so happy. I also know it won't always be like that. You love helping around the house picking up your toys, helping empty the dishwasher, fetching baby toys for Camden and setting the table. Your little brother adores you!!! Sometimes, you are the only one that can keep him happy. I hope and pray you too will be good friends. He already looks up to you and I have a feeling he will follow in your footsteps. I love you and can't wait to watch you grow!

Psych!

2009-06-05T22:01:00.000-07:00

The job in AZ didn't work out the way we had hoped. But....Heath got a job offer in California so we took it! After packing our bags and heading to AZ, we learned of the job situation and packed our bags again a week later and drove to sunny California. Oh wait, it hasn't been quite sunny--it's rained the last 2 days. I guess that's what they call the June gloom. :) We are happy to be here with family. We are living with my parents while Heath commutes to Pasadena for an internship. We are excited to have a fun-filled summer with family and friends and lots of trips to the beach. wahoo!! So, I know, we are pretty hard to keep up with. I, too, can't keep up with it. But, now that we're here, I finally feel at peace. These last two months of uncertainty have been hard on me. I always like to have everything organized and prepared early. I guess something I've learned from this is no matter how much planning you do in advance, life will always through you curve balls. So, now that we are settled, I can finally start blogging about all the fun things we've been up to. Coming Soon: Jace's Birthday Party!!!

Can't Escape the Heat

2009-05-19T07:36:00.001-07:00

So, the verdict is in.....We're moving to Arizona for the summer. We applied to jobs in Colorado, California and Arizona....and we ended up in the Valley of the Sun. Mostly, we're grateful that we have a job. In this tough economy, it's hard to find anything. I'm so going to miss CO though. The afternoon thunderstorms are starting this week and I love how much it cools down. The trees are all green again and wow, spring is beautiful here. All my friends are starting the fun summer activities soon that I'm going to miss :( It's amazing that we can actually do things outside during the summer here. That's a new concept and I guess one I won't get to enjoy it till next summer. :) We're renting our place out furnished so we don't have a ton of packing to do...but still some. I'm excited to see family and friends, go swimming (oh, that means wearing a bathing suit...yikes!), go to sewing night with the SSC, visiting family in CA, monsoon rainstorms, and camping in July.

So, I need some help!!!

Any of you Arizonians.....

Have a baby swing or exersaucer I can borrow for 2 months? We're only driving our Honda
Where are you doing swim lessons?
Anyone doing any fun sports activities for their kids?

THANK YOU!!!!!!! See you Arizona in a week. Fare thee well Colorado till August.

Cutest Bobblehead!!

2009-05-17T20:16:00.000-07:00

When grandma comes to play!

2009-05-05T21:19:00.000-07:00

My mom came to visit this last week and we had SO much fun! I sure miss living by family. She watched Camden so I could get a long overdue pedicure! I haven't had one since last June. Way too long!! She got me a book called, The Mother in Me. I already started reading it. It has reminded me of all the joys of motherhood and has helped me put this trial into perspective. I've had a more difficult time with this one than I thought I would. But, things are getting better. The weather didn't cooperate so we didn't get to do much fun outdoor activities. We did go to the mall but didn't shop. (to all those nearby mothers out there: I feel for you! Why in the world the Park Meadows Mall has no play area is a mystery to me! The kids just hang out at the Pottery Barn Kids. I couldn't believe it! There were girls playing tea, boys playing with trucks and others jumping on beds! This is a store! The crazy thing is, everyone does it and the store has no problem or so they say.)

Guess what.... I finally saw Twilight (sorry obsessed fans out there. this wasn't on the top of my list a couple days after having a baby. although I would've loved to go). My mom and I watched it while Heath sat in the background and laughed here and there. I have to admit, it was good, not great and corny. I still have a secret crush on Edward. I'm so grateful for my mom. She grounds me and gives me great advice. She reminds me... that I'm strong, to be faithful, to work hard, to be patient, that it's okay to have bad days and to appreciate the good ones that much more. In lieu of mother's day, I think you know Mom, how much I love you and appreciate everything you've done for me growing up and continue to do every day.

Pics: Mom, I just realized we didn't take any with YOU and the kids. Jace at the temple. he loves the temple! the boys chillin on grandma's bed. Grandma bought Jace a firetruck! He was so excited.

2009-05-04T15:24:00.000-07:00

The true meaning

2009-04-14T15:02:00.000-07:00

I loved Easter this year! As a family, we really wanted to celebrate the true meaning of Easter. We woke up to a rainy easter morning ( I love the rain), which I felt appropriate for easter...starting new...washed clean...helping the earth grow and blossom. We had a yummy pancake breakfast and then watched Finding Faith in Christ. Jace sat through the whole thing and was particuarly concerned when they took Jesus to the cross. He's watched it before but I wanted him to realize what Easter was all about. We did easter baskets, but nothing extravagant...mostly candy. (which by the way needs to leave my house bc all I'm doing is eating it) Church, was of course, spiritually rejuvinating and the lesson in RS was so powerful about being valiant in the cause of Christ. We came home to a yummy pot roast in the oven and the rest of the evening was just so nice spending time together.

The Hunt

2009-04-14T14:43:00.000-07:00

We went to the Highlands Ranch Easter Egg Hunt for what Jace calls, "Rabbit Day" Good thing I had some of our coats in the car, because it was A LOT colder than we anticipated. In fact, Heath didn't wear a coat and he froze!!! His hands were like ice and the wind was blowing so hard. Not to mention, we had to hike a mile to get to the park. But, it was all worth it! There were SO many eggs. It was insane/ We had a great time and they were giving away free samples of the the BEST cake I've ever had.... nothingbundtcake. WOW! We went back for 2nds and 3rds. Jace wouldn't get near the easter bunny this year....who could blame him...he looked pretty scary to me this year. Aren't Easter Bunny's round and fluffy and friendly??? This one was emaciated and didn't look anywhere but straight ahead. Kinda creepy. :)

Just found this picture from last year.....what a difference! I can remember sweating like crazy that day.

pics

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