Day 13

It's not that I don't like blogging, it's just lately I've seen it as something else to do on my checklist. I don't want it to be like that and perhaps it's because I have to think of something to write about each time. Instead of a topic today, I'm just going to write. Today was a good day at church. I thought choir practice started today so Heath dropped me off early and drove home. Well, no practice. I sat in the chapel for an hour just sitting, thinking, reading the hymn book (didn't have my scriptures.) To be honest, it was quite nice to just have some peace and quiet. And yet, in the back of my head, I was hoping everything was going okay at home and feeling guilty I wasn't there to help Heath out with the boys. Jace has been exceptionally active as of late. I just can't figure this kid out. I want to embrace his energy for life and who he is, but somedays, it takes all my strength and patience to not burst. He's getting more aggressive toward Camden, and I don't think he's trying to be mean, he just doesn't know when to stop.... that's with everything though. We've racked our brains with good consequences, but nothing seems to work. Any ideas????? He won't sit in time out, he doesn't care if we take toys away and even if he cares for the moment, he does the exact same thing that got him in trouble a second later, which means he's not learning. Just venting. There's got to be a better way to teach him. We even tried a strike system. I think I'm going to try a reward system next...maybe then he'll get it. Good night whoever out there reading.